A girl can dream, can’t she?

Do you ever know your feelings, but are fearful of expressing them? I don’t want to be awkward. I don’t want to ruin a friendship or seem over-the-top. How do you express feelings to someone? Rather, how do you express feelings for someone? Oh, what a slippery ice I walk upon when it comes to these things! A slippery ice indeed! 

A little while ago I blogged about wanting to feel that fluttery love-like feeling. I’m feeling it. Perhaps it has come with the slow replenishing of my emotions in general, or maybe not. I don’t know. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I’m in love, though. I’m not sure I ever have been, nor will I ever be. Any love-related feeling, however, I will accept with open arms–or an open heart, I should say. 

I suppose I’ll just keep this to myself. A relationship would never work out, realistically. I’d probably freak him out by even expressing my feelings. There’s a slim chance he’d feel the same way. And even if he did, we’d not be able to see each other often. Also, all relationships have an end (for the most part), and it would probably ruin our friendship. So I’ll keep this to myself.

Oh, but trying to rationally think through this will do no good. I’ll let my heart free, but not my tongue. No, not my tongue. I can feel the fluttering love all I want, but I’ll never be able to express it to him. I can only hope that somehow, by slim chance, he’ll feel the same toward me–and express it himself.

But that would be selfish to expect him to express his feelings. I wouldn’t want to put that on him, if he does have feelings for me. Which I’m sure he doesn’t. But a girl can dream, can’t she? A girl can dream. 

And dream I shall. 

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